I keep hoping for things to get better But life hasn't settled at all It's like I'm staring at a dry planted seed hoping for it to grow when I have a leaking hose right next to me And as I wish for that seed to blossom I know that nothing is going to change I know that everything will remain the same But I act like everything's going to be OK ~ Am I waiting for the patch of dirt to speak to me? Will it provide me with the answer I've been looking for? Do my answers lay underneath the Earth? And if they did, would I mind dirtying my hands to dig them out? Do I dare? ~ Problems keep stacking up and I can't move away The farther away I look, the closer reality appears And eventually it caught up to me This entire time, I wasn't running from the problem I was running with it But standing still only causes anxiety ~ So the only option would be to take it head on But how do you solve a problem that has no head How do you approach an issue that that has no legs And at one point is it my fault And at one point do I realize that it's always been my fault ~ Maybe letting my feelings control me was the wrong answer, As my entire life I tried to control my feelings When is it OK for me to pull back At what point is looking forward the irresponsible decision Maybe I carry the problem everywhere I go Am I the one that has to go?
9.2.22 2:28 am