I’m taking a break

What’s up loyal followers. If you are a real one, you may have noticed that there haven’t been many articles in the past few weeks since Blogtober ended. No, I haven’t given up on the blog, yet. Rather, I just want to take a long extended break from writing. I’m thinking about picking back up again after the new year, but we’ll see – maybe I’ll start uploading again before then. I think what writing everyday in October taught me was that, I really don’t have that many life experiences and I lack a lot of wisdom. Writing everyday about stupid stuff, stuff that I thought was insightful, and media that I really liked – I really feel like I emptied the tank in the month of October. It was draining to have to think of something to write everyday. I shit you not, I would literally just be sitting at my desk, writing, hitting backspace, writing again, reading aloud, hitting backspace again – until it was like 10pm and I had a vague idea of what to write. If I’m being honest, without looking, I don’t think that I can even recount what article I wrote in the month of October because I feel like a lot of them were just throwaways.

So while I take this time off, I’m going to be doing more to experience more in life. I need more life experiences to write about. I don’t have any answers, I am clueless. The only thing that I know is that I don’t know anything. I find that I’m often rewriting articles that I’ve already written, I’ve just forgotten that I have already written it or I found a different slant that I wanted to share. There’s not as much originality as I would like. So I apologize to you, my reader if you were looking for something insightful, funny, or inspiring today. Hopefully the next month and a half provides me with more new experiences, interactions, and ideas as I gear up to be better for next year. And I hope that in our time apart that you also have grown as a person, let’s all grow! Until then though, I just want to stop for a bit.

But speaking of stopping, I’ve also been thinking about when this blog will end. When will Thoughtful Bear just stop being updated. I won’t lie, sometimes, this blog does feel like a chore and I’m writing about things that I’m not necessarily enjoying. I don’t make money off this blog, I don’t receive any literal value from this blog. The most I get out of it is when someone tells me that the blog was interesting to them, or that they resonated with the article. I sincerely am grateful for all the kind remarks. But if I’m being honest, I don’t know if I can write this blog for the rest of my life. So I decided that the only time I will consider retiring from writing this blog is when One Piece ends. Yep, when One Piece is finished, that’s the next time I will actually consider retiring this blog. If Oda can finish his writing career, I will finish mine as well as tribute.

On a lighter note, again I want to thank so many of you for reading. October was a tough month for me, with all the traveling, work, and WRITING but I do believe that this test in discipline is good for me and hopefully you got something out of it too. You guys don’t even realize it, because no one comments (y’all should comment tho) or anything like that – but I genuinely believe that everybody who messages me about relating to an article on this blog, could be friends. I mean it, everybody who gives me feedback is someone who belongs to a similar wavelength to me. And if you’re reading this and feeling a little lonely, just know that there is someone else that is not me, reading this blog as well and feeling the same way you do.