Whenever I count all the mishaps and mistakes on the year, I’m reminded of how I’m constantly looking for improvement and looking towards succeeding. And even though I haven’t really put down any goals on paper, I do have some that have developed in the back of my head that I plan on fulfilling. That is to say that, although I can often times be quite cynical and really hard on myself, I am also optimistic in good fortunes to come. This confidence is probably my best quality and it also helps with my belief that falling short of a goal only becomes a lesson in the grand scheme of life. How many lessons I want to learn in this manner, well not very much, but there’s always a little good from the bad. So in this final year of undergrad, I’m going to place some lofty goals for myself and I’m really looking forward to becoming a better person and you know that I’m going BALLS TO THE WALL.
So as most students have it, the most busy time of my life is in the school year. It’s that eight month window of my life, where I am most productive and socially involved. Every summer of my life, I would consider the things I did not like about myself during that time of year, to see whether I can fix any of those things and improve on them, in the year to come. For example: in the summer after first year, I wanted to tone down being a fuccboi. In the recollection of experiences of the last Fall, Winter, and Spring, I really hated that I kept falling short of certain aspirations and goals and therefore becoming heartbroken or disappointed. Now obviously, problems like this happen all the time and I think it’s important to pick these things up and work to improve ASAP, however, I just seem to have had many letdowns this year, leaving me to be upset and glum a lot. But, it’s not all bad.